A luggage left unpacked from my recent trip to Australia has just been hanging around in my room for the past two months. My room is a mess. Books and a bunch of chocolates from Halloween on top of my dresser, gifts and dirty laundry on the floor, an unopened package in my cabinet. It is sometimes difficult to breathe when I’m in my room. Definitely not the best place to rest.
My room can be a reflection of my life at the moment. My life IS a mess. I got laid off from my job and then two days later got dumped over the phone. It really is a funny thing because I met this guy around the same time I started that job. It’s kinda crazy that they ended up having the same life span of two years and seven months. I am going to be honest and say I was lost. I guess I still am.
But I am not going to sit around in my room and look at this mess every single day. I decided to do something about it. I have never done anything like this before. I, however, dreamt about doing this but never did as I always found reasons not to but here, right now, is my chance. I already lost two things, what more do I have to lose? Nothing and no one is holding me back. It is time.
A few days after those heartbreaking turn of events, I applied for a visa to work and live in a new country. A week after that, I sealed the deal and bought a one-way ticket to my hopefully, new home.
Some people say I am brave for doing something for myself instead of sulking around and throwing a pity party. They said the new environment will be good for me. Others say I am a coward for running away and that I should face my problems head on. I haven’t decided yet which one I am and it doesn’t really matter to me what people think.
I have 29 days left until I leave Canada. I am excited for the chance to start anew, meet amazing people, and create better memories. I am sad I am leaving behind a whole lot of the people I love and the place I called home for the past eight years. I am scared of getting out of my comfort zone and venturing into the unknown but I also know that a change is what’s necessary. Despite the doubts and hesitations trying to make me stay, I couldn’t. I have to push myself over the edge, that is where the magic happens, right?
I have a limited amount of dollars in my pocket that was taken out of my savings account and I have no job prospects lined up but I do know a few good people who are excited and are looking forward to see me and that is enough.
*Featured photo was taken by my awesome papa at Grassi Lakes, Alberta, Canada.*
Best of luck, jus! I think you’re brave for doing what you did. I don’t see it as running away, but as starting anew. You don’t have to please anybody, just do you. It’s gonna be difficult leaving home, but it will be worth it. I felt kinda similar years ago, and moving out of my comfort zone was one of the best things I did. So spread your wings, coz we’ll be here rooting for you! 🙂
OMG! ate Javie! Thank you so much for this! It made my day! <3 I will re-read this when I question my decision again. haha
So where are you going to? Girl, changing your environment is not an act of cowardness. It’s good to switch things up, especially if nothing is keeping you there. I’m switching place every two years. Sometimes it’s because things are not going well and i need a fresh start, and sometimes i’m just bored and need a fresh start also haha. Either way, the new environment will be great for you! It will keep your mind busy and will give you a new purpose in life!
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I’m so glad you sound rather motivated and ready than depressed and hopeless. I wish you an inspiring start!
And by the way: My room far too often looks like yours – that’s not necessarily a bad sign; it can be a sign that you’re too busy moving on so you don’t have time for the unimportant stuff 😉 All the best – enjoy your freedom and the adventures to come!
You’re going to be just fine, and also, there’s better weather in Australia right?! Count yourself lucky that you have the option of easily migrating somewhere to new possibilities; you’ll have no problems finding another job, or a nicer new guy! I wish you all the best of luck xxx
I do NOT see it as running away from your problems or situation. Change is good and like you said, it really doesn’t matter what people say or think anyway. It’s your life, you’ve got to take the reigns in your hands and do whatever it is you need to do to find your happiness again. Yes, it is a very brave thing to start anew in a country and I really admire you for that. Wish you all the luck and I’m sure that you’re going to be fine! x
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Girl, you go, girl! You are a brave-hearted strong personality woman! Change is the only constant. After every sunset, there is a sunrise; after every storm, there is a clear sky. I wish you all luck for your new life at the new place. With loads of love, Shreya <3
moving on is not being coward..its very very brave..m so sorry to hear ur loss but m sure u will find a better job and a better partner..wish u good luck for ur new life..and a warm hug.. <3
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