A luggage left unpacked from my recent trip to Australia has just been hanging around in my room for the past two months. My room is a mess. Books and a bunch of chocolates from Halloween on top of my dresser, gifts and dirty laundry on the floor, an unopened package in my cabinet. It is sometimes difficult to breathe when I’m in my room. Definitely not the best place to rest.
My room can be a reflection of my life at the moment. My life IS a mess. I got laid off from my job and then two days later got dumped over the phone. It really is a funny thing because I met this guy around the same time I started that job. It’s kinda crazy that they ended up having the same life span of two years and seven months. I am going to be honest and say I was lost. I guess I still am.
But I am not going to sit around in my room and look at this mess every single day. I decided to do something about it. I have never done anything like this before. I, however, dreamt about doing this but never did as I always found reasons not to but here, right now, is my chance. I already lost two things, what more do I have to lose? Nothing and no one is holding me back. It is time.
A few days after those heartbreaking turn of events, I applied for a visa to work and live in a new country. A week after that, I sealed the deal and bought a one-way ticket to my hopefully, new home.
Some people say I am brave for doing something for myself instead of sulking around and throwing a pity party. They said the new environment will be good for me. Others say I am a coward for running away and that I should face my problems head on. I haven’t decided yet which one I am and it doesn’t really matter to me what people think.
I have 29 days left until I leave Canada. I am excited for the chance to start anew, meet amazing people, and create better memories. I am sad I am leaving behind a whole lot of the people I love and the place I called home for the past eight years. I am scared of getting out of my comfort zone and venturing into the unknown but I also know that a change is what’s necessary. Despite the doubts and hesitations trying to make me stay, I couldn’t. I have to push myself over the edge, that is where the magic happens, right?
I have a limited amount of dollars in my pocket that was taken out of my savings account and I have no job prospects lined up but I do know a few good people who are excited and are looking forward to see me and that is enough.
*Featured photo was taken by my awesome papa at Grassi Lakes, Alberta, Canada.*